I’m hurt. I’m hurt because
of you. I’m hurt because of your words that you told me 2 days ago. You said “a
few weeks ago, someone came to me …a girl”. Those words hurt my heart so much.
I swear, that’s fucking hurt. Those words means that you have a brand new me,
you didn’t need me anymore.
I thought, since that girl came to you, you were feeling so fine.
Because, she treats you better than me. I know, this is my fault. This is my
mistake. I was the very first person who makes all of this mess. I didn’t treat
you well. I can’t treat you better like you treat me. I didn’t mean to treat you
like that. I just didn’t realize what I did. I mean, I think that I’ve treated you
well. But the fact, I treated you so bad. I know that’s the reason why you leave
me and turned away to that girl. I think I’m too stupid to did that to you. I mean like
being cold and ignorant to you. But I swear, I just didn’t realize that. I’m
sorry. I’m really sorry. And when you’ve changed, I just realized about my
attitude. The way you text me, the way you talk to me, the way you treat me are
not same anymore like before. I asked you many times, why are you like this? Why
are you change? What happen to you? But you said, you just don’t have any
topics to talk to me. So I tried to change my attitude. I tried to not being
cold anymore, I tried to sweet to you, and I tried to make some topics. So I thought
that you’ll can come back like before. But what I got from you? You being rude
to me. You ignore me, all the time. That’s hurt me so bad.
I feel tired, so tired. So tired to get ignored from you. So tired
to get your coldness attitude. And in that time, I think it’s better if we
didn’t communicate for a while. But you know what? I just got more
pain than before. And tried to only read your text, I thought you’ll text me
again like before. But, you didn’t text me again. Since then, I think you
didn’t care about me anymore. And I thought you’re a jerk, like another boy who
left me alone when I’m in love with them. But then you ask what happen to me.
And I explain it, I told you everything what I feel and what I’m curious about
why you change. And then, you also explain what’s the reason you changed, the
reason you didn’t text me again, the reason you left me. Since then, I realized
that I’m too childish and too stupid to did that to you.
And now, everything has changed. You’ve changed. We’re changed. We
don’t care about each other anymore. The future that we hold is so unclear.
I thought that I’ve been hurt before. But actually I’m not, since
you leave me alone like this. Great job, you did it. You just broke my heart
into a million pieces. But I can’t blame you. Because this is actually my
fault. I messed up all of this.
I’m so sorry about what I’ve done to you. I’m really sorry. I want
to start it over. I’ll change my attitude, there will no longer coldness. I
promise. Can we start it over? Can we? I miss
you, I miss so bad.
Your heart got me feeling so fine.
Your heart got a story
with mine.
I was really comfortable if I’m with you.
Am I too late to fix all
of this mess?
Can you give me the second chance, please?
Because, I’m still
falling for you.
